Birches with Sexual Overtones

 

birch trees

At risk of courting an avalanche of mirth, or even worse, scathing academic scorn, I want to write about my ‘analysis’ of ‘Birches’, a poem by Robert Frost ( see copy below). But first, by way of self justification, I just want to say I agree with one of my poetry workshop participants last night who said that what she loved about poetry was how every poem, whatever the intention of its author, becomes the possession of the reader  because it is the reader who interprets its meaning.

So, that said, I’ll continue. According to general literary commentary, the poem, Birches, is about truth and imagination, heaven and earth, control and abandon, flight and return. I quote sparknotes[i]

The whole upward thrust of the poem is toward imagination, escape, and transcendence—and away from heavy Truth with a capital T. The downward pull is back to earth.”

However, when my friend and I read the poem, we came up with another interpretation. Is this poem about the adolescent awakening of boyhood sexuality? The following two lines provoked our initial questioning.

Like girls on hands and knees that throw their hair

Before them over their heads to dry in the sun.”

Both of us felt uncomfortable with the two lines. We felt they were at odds with the previous naturalistic bent of the poem. The image was strange. The girls must be there for a reason, I said. Let’s go back and look at the poem to see if there are other similar references. And suddenly, we could see them everywhere.  So, I came to the conclusion that swinging on the birch trees was definitely akin to the early sexual experience /lustful thoughts of a young boy. Now, I don’t know whether one can make double entendres of anything once one has the idea, but, given the earlier assertion that the poem is owned by the reader, this is now my official interpretation. My friend is less sure so I am putting forward this argument to see what others think.

Here is my brief justification:

For me, the portrayal early in the poem of the birch covered in ice and sun, blowing in breezes  in the sun’s warmth, “as the stir crazes and cracks their  enamel” has a feel of awakening, and stirring of emotions.  The line “You may see their trunks arching in the woods” just before the lines about the girls on hands and knees has sexual over tones and surely the reference to the dome of heaven “fallen” could refer to the early orgasm. I wondered whether the young boy who does not have the  distraction of sports, “whose only play was what he found himself” also suggests this. The use of the word ‘subdue’  which has connotations of  sexual power in relation to his father’s trees (the birches) is  strange, as are the following few lines:

“One by one he subdued his father’s trees

By riding them down over and over again

Until he took the stiffness out of them,

And not one but hung limp, not one was left

For him to conquer. He learned all there was

To learn about not launching out too soon

And so not carrying the tree away.”

They seem to me be to  refer to a boy exploring his own body and sexuality. Frosts description towards the end of the poem could easily be describing the joy and exultation of the sexual act; its reaching for escape, the tip of the world, and returning to earth which is the ‘right place for love.’

I am not a poetry critic, other than in appreciating what I like and understand. But I wanted to write this as we haven’t been able to find any other reference to such an analysis in relation to Birches, and as a result, began to feel ‘wrong,’ and ‘stupid’ and ‘way off course’. But the poem is ours now, whatever Robert Frost intended. And, I like it better.  There is the ‘solar’ (the sense/meaning),  the ‘lunar’ (the sensual, the beauty), the ‘musical’ (the tone, the sound) and the ‘visual’ (the form); the poem is a torrent. Unlike, The Road Not Taken, there is no particular form… as is the case with young adolescent boys.

So, I rest my case and hope you enjoy the poem…do let me have any thoughts!

On a more personal note, I am really looking forward to reading in Galway tomorrow (Culture Day) twice! In Clifden at the Arts Festival I am reading my poem, The Ancient Song of the Pebble, published in the last Skylight 47 and then in back in Galway City I am reading Please May I Have a Man, long-listed in the At The Edge competition this year. Then back to Cavan at 10pm for the Trans-Art event celebrating Dermot Healy!

Birches

BY ROBERT FROST

When I see birches bend to left and right

Across the lines of straighter darker trees,

I like to think some boy’s been swinging them.

But swinging doesn’t bend them down to stay

As ice-storms do. Often you must have seen them

Loaded with ice a sunny winter morning

After a rain. They click upon themselves

As the breeze rises, and turn many-colored

As the stir cracks and crazes their enamel.

Soon the sun’s warmth makes them shed crystal shells

Shattering and avalanching on the snow-crust—

Such heaps of broken glass to sweep away

You’d think the inner dome of heaven had fallen.

They are dragged to the withered bracken by the load,

And they seem not to break; though once they are bowed

So low for long, they never right themselves:

You may see their trunks arching in the woods

Years afterwards, trailing their leaves on the ground

Like girls on hands and knees that throw their hair

Before them over their heads to dry in the sun.

But I was going to say when Truth broke in

With all her matter-of-fact about the ice-storm

I should prefer to have some boy bend them

As he went out and in to fetch the cows—

Some boy too far from town to learn baseball,

Whose only play was what he found himself,

Summer or winter, and could play alone.

One by one he subdued his father’s trees

By riding them down over and over again

Until he took the stiffness out of them,

And not one but hung limp, not one was left

For him to conquer. He learned all there was

To learn about not launching out too soon

And so not carrying the tree away

Clear to the ground. He always kept his poise

To the top branches, climbing carefully

With the same pains you use to fill a cup

Up to the brim, and even above the brim.

Then he flung outward, feet first, with a swish,

Kicking his way down through the air to the ground.

So was I once myself a swinger of birches.

And so I dream of going back to be.

It’s when I’m weary of considerations,

And life is too much like a pathless wood

Where your face burns and tickles with the cobwebs

Broken across it, and one eye is weeping

From a twig’s having lashed across it open.

I’d like to get away from earth awhile

And then come back to it and begin over.

May no fate willfully misunderstand me

And half grant what I wish and snatch me away

Not to return. Earth’s the right place for love:

I don’t know where it’s likely to go better.

I’d like to go by climbing a birch tree,

And climb black branches up a snow-white trunk

Toward heaven, till the tree could bear no more,

But dipped its top and set me down again.

That would be good both going and coming back.

One could do worse than be a swinger of birches.

 

 

 

[i] http://www.sparknotes.com/poetry/frost/section8.rhtml

 

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Musing from London

I am back in London, sitting up in bed.  I am supposed to be working on a poem (my focus is on form and structure). I look out of the window into the rows of London gardens: brick walls covered in ivy and wisteria. The leaves on the gigantic tree opposite are on the turn: beautiful green, yellow and orange. At the end of one branch, gold burnishes. Every so often a leaf flutters down. I am also listening to a politician, Lord Carrington, I think it is,  on the radio discussing the problems of the ‘land issue’ when handing Rhodesia back to the Africans. I am on Facebook too.

So, can I be accused of procrastination? Actually, I think procrastination gets a bad name when in fact it is rather a delightful occupation. It is like the foreplay to sex. It builds up tension. Abstract, unfocused thinking leads to slow notions, and ideas. I often start scribbling when I have no idea of what is coming but , usually, the flow begins and the links emerge. (A caution here, when I say links, as my idea of links can be rather haphazard!)

So while listening to the discussion of Rhodesia/Zimbabwe’s experience of growing independence,  I hear about the multilayered issues, the local politics, the  economics and personal enmities involved while also reading a FB comment about what happens to your Facebook stream if you ‘like’ posts. As I listen to the radio, what strikes me (again) is how we so easily make judgments, form opinions without fully understanding the whole equation (independence for Africa). I suppose, it is essential we do this, for if we knew the whole picture, understood the intricacy, it would inhibit us from action. Passion is necessary for action.

Back to FB. One of my ‘friends’ (well, more of a colleague than a friend, you know FB) informs me that a friend of hers was testing the benefits of ‘liking’ on Facebook. Apparently,  not ‘liking’ improves your FB experience. It seems the algorithm that Facebook uses doesn’t discriminate between showing us the sweet kitties we ‘like’ and the cruel torture of cats we don’t, and sends us pictures of everything feline. I don’t really understand how FB works, I thought I simply received material shared by my ‘friends’. (Isn’t it strange how many inverted quotation marks need to be used when referring to FB). So, the ‘study’ carried out indicates that it is much better to comment. Comments are not part of the algorithm and therefore don’t attract ads. Comments make your FB experience more meaningful. An article on the experience of ‘not liking’ was posted. Apparently, it had been difficult not to ‘like’. The author felt guilty she wasn’t ‘supporting’ her friends and even that by not ‘liking’, she was expressing disapproval. Then she read an article about someone who had done the opposite and liked everything and his feed had become a terror ridden, and tense, full of horror and gore.

It was the feeling of guilt when she didn’t ‘like’ that interested me. It is absurd, but I know what she means. Our ‘liking’ something on FB  is pretty meaningless, but it is seductive as it shows we support people without having  do anything. What bliss! But I’ve decided I’m going to reduce my ‘liking’ and comment or share instead.

What has this to do with Rhodesia/Zimbabwe? I don’t know except that maybe those ‘inverted quotation marks’ reflect on how little we all understand or really know what is going on in our world – despite the communication – whatever the time frame. I like FB.  I enjoy reading which ten books have impacted on FB ‘friends’. I like knowing what people are up to  (particularly Lesley who travels the world). I like putting pictures and comments about my AT The Edge, Cavan literary nights and poetry workshops (next one starts Wednesday 17 Sept). I feel FB keeps me in contact. It reminds me that ‘friends’ are out there, and that they are, or have been, a part of my life! All a little superficial? Probably, but that’s okay. However, from now on, I will ‘comment’ rather than ‘like’ so if I don’t ‘like’ your postings, don’t be offended and I’ll try not to be if you don’t ‘like’ mine. You can comment instead!

kate 001There drops another golden leaf in the garden…

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First Tuesdays, First Wednesdays…It All Begins Again in September.

I always feel discombobulated in August. August is a month for holidays, and if you are not on holiday, you don’t know what to do with yourself, even when there are things to do. This aimlessness is accentuated when one does not have to work. It feels like I am on holiday, particularly when the weather is good. The garden beckons for play, not weeding; walks and swims become lazy past times instead of regular daily exercise. It is all very irritating because I am not on holiday but others are. Somehow this changes everything. Radio programmes are different, the news does not seem to be the real, the sun is shining, and even when it’s raining people are cheerful about the Irish summer. World events, death, rape, wars, incursions, Ebola, all shimmer on the distant horizon. There are super moons, shooting stars, and a stream of never ending festivals to which I don’t go – because I am not on holiday. Everything is put on the long finger until September even though I have nothing in particular to do. I must say, it upset my equilibrium and I have felt rather disgruntled. When I was employed in an office, I used to like working in August. It was like working in slow motion. Now I’m not so keen. Being unemployed in slow motion is not as nice!

 So, I am looking forward to Sember when life begins again. It begins with a bang. There is the third AT The Edge, Cavan literary evening on Tuesday 2 September. I have three mature women poets reading: Heather Brett, Mary Melvin Geoghan and Jean Folan.  That reminds me, I have to submit a funding application to the Arts Council next month to continue this project. I should have prepared it in August but because of my discombobulation, I have been unable to do a thing. I haven’t even written any poetry. I did write a piece of flash fiction about the BBC Test Card…don’t ask.

 On Wednesday 3 September, there is a rehearsed reading of one of my one act plays at the First Wednesdays event which is run every month by Freda Donoghue and Aishling Muller at Farrelly’s in Oldcastle. The play is called The Dead Mother’s Society. It’s about four people who accidentally killed their mothers…again, don’t ask!

 I am very excited about First Wednesday. Like my other play, ‘My Rings for a Cushion’, I wrote Dead Mothers as a short story and then revamped it into a one act drama. I could do this with a good few of my short stories…my characters simply don’t shut up. It’ll be interesting to see and hear the audience reaction to it.

 I think First Wednesdays is a brilliant idea. It is a great opportunity for writers to get their material broadcast. There are usually two or three scripts read/rehearsed and Freda and Aisling are open to submissions. You can be a part of your reading, if you like. Come along to Farrelly’s pub on Wednesday 3 September at 9pm and find out more.

 Apart from the Arts Council application, I  also have to start planning the programme of my eight week poetry workshops which start in Cana House on Wednesday 17 September. And, I’m off to London on the 4th September. Then there is mental health training later in the month hosted by the Cavan Women’s Network, and I have the AGM of Cavan Public Participation Network.

 You know what, as I write this, I’m beginning to wish I appreciated the month of August more!kate 001sept flyer At The Edge, Cavan

 

 

 

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A weekend of war and fudge

This weekend, I visited the WW1 Trench Exhibition in the Cavan County Museum and was so impressed! What a brilliant idea! Even bathed in Cavan sunshine, and pristine in appearance, it gives an idea of the horrors of trench life. The trenches were dug during the war, and had to be shored up with timber and corrugated iron or ‘wriggle tin’ (I love that description). Not only did men have to live in these appalling conditions, they had to build them opposite the enemy lines. There are sand bags, firing steps, dug outs, command posts. Did you know there were 25,000 miles of trenches dug by the end of the war? The information panels are excellent. There are not too many. They are short. They are interesting. The depiction of No Man’s Land is very good. The exhibition is sobering, and thought provoking without being sensational. Hats off to Cavan County Council and Peace III.

trench no mans land trench casualty trench sand

 The trench and commemoration of WW1 is a timely reminder given what is happening in the world today. Social media gives us greater access to information, but, in so doing it renders me more horrified and provokes feelings of powerlessness. Today I read on Facebook that ISIS is cutting off the heads of young children. Two weeks ago I read of bodies falling from the sky when the plane was shot down. Last week I read about slaughter of Palestinians. Before that it was children kidnapped and murdered in Nigeria. Now we also have Ebola. The experience we humans inflict on each other seems endless, probably as relentless as the life those men in the trenches faced. We say never again…but…it is amazing how night follows day.

 So, I am glad that on Friday I had a good day. I visited a Taste of Cavan. It was packed and full of sumptuous local produce and well supported by the businesses and traders of Cavan. There was a real buzz about the place. There were designer cakes, syrups, beef, cheese, oils, chicken, bread, beers, wines,  vegetables, relishes, mustards, ice cream and I got a taste of everything, except of course the array of wonderful knitting, beautiful crochet and make up that is all produced locally. There was lots of jousting, inside and outside the foodhall as WW1 exhibitions and other activities were demonstrated by men in uniform, on horses and other such fayre experiences. It was good to partake of something which made me feel proud to be part of mankind.

 I topped off my war and fudge weekend by going to see Shell-Shock by Philip Doherty in the Town Hall. I liked the end message: we all face our own trenches, war or no war, but felt slightly assaulted by the mix of pathos with high speed action and humour. It was about a Cavan boy (a nerd) who is bullied by a controlling mother, two stereo typical ‘knackers’, the local ‘John Boy’, and the village gossips. He discovers his great grandfather was a WW1 Hero and he manipulates this knowledge to justify revenge laden retribution. It didn’t quite work for me, though as usual Philip was on form with his humorous depiction of  rural life. The play was very well directed and the acting was excellent. It’s great to have Philip and Gonzo in town.

 Well done, Cavan.

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Writing Willy Nilly

ke mc 

For the past few years I have been developing a group of short stories drawn from my life experiences. They were written because I liked writing and wanted to write. They evolved through various mechanisms and went through different forms. They are now ten to twelve short stories and, aside from the editing, they are complete. And, now, I don’t know what to do. Of course, I have my poetry. Poems are my morning glory. They lure me from my bed. My poems are part of my every day. I pick them from the top of the fridge, hear them on the radio, play with them in the garden. But for the past year or so these stories have anchored me. So now I am feeling rather unbalanced, not as in ‘falling’ but as if I have lost my moorings. Now a million shipping metaphors are on the drift…without a compass, all at sea, fog bound. You get my point!

 I guess those stories gave shape to my writing, provided an outlet and now I am going to have to find a new funnel (help, I have to get away from these nautical nuances) for my writing.  Maybe different stories? More drama? Different horizons? (there I go again)! It’s a little scary: I feel as if am marooned on a desert island with no trees or bushes, simply oceans of sand.

 In the past, when I have thought of a desert island, it has always been laden with exotic fruits, thick fronded palm trees and weeping willows (I think the latter came from Enid Blyton’s Famous Five Stuck On an Island) from which I can weave a comfortable abode. There are fish leaping through the surf and shy, good looking, half naked nomads who occasionally share my beach and listen to my poetry. But now I’ve completed my stories, the ‘desert’ aspect becomes more dominant. My island is now barren, full of dry, windswept grains of sand and somehow, I have to make it fertile. I have to make something grow. In short, I have to start a new script for myself.

 It’s rather terrifying, and I have a feeling that this will turn out to be a bit of a ‘process’ thing. You know, where one has to experience the change and the moment before appreciating its meaning and understanding its form. I hate process. It’s so intangible and takes an age. I am too impatient for process. I always try to impose significance on process before it is ready.

 So you may be hearing more from me than is desirable. If my scripted musings become too impenetrable, ignore it…it’s just me processing and writing willy-nilly in the absence of any prosaic structure!

 Actually, maybe I’ll be able to help myself at the writing weekend which I am running on Saturday 16th and Sunday 17th August in Cana House. It may get me started anyhow. Actually, this week a participant of the last writing weekend shared my facebook post about the upcoming weekend, saying

 Treat yourselves – I did a weekend workshop with Kate Ennals and have to say, best money I ever spent on myself. Better than any spa day and better than the best night I ever had in a pub

 Pretty cool ay?

 Details of the weekend are:

 A two day writing workshop will be facilitated by Kate Ennals on Saturday 16th and Sunday 17th August in Cana House (behind St Felim’s School) Farnham St, Cavan Town from 10.00am – 3.30pm The two day workshop will include discussion on writing and poetry and set a range of different exercises: poetry, free writing, character development, dialogue. The poems/writing of each participant will be work shopped by the group.

The aim of the weekend is to stimulate different writing ideas and to work together. The workshop will be varied and hopefully challenging. There will be a limit of 10 places allocated on a first come, first served basis. Cost €45. (Light home made lunch included). The weekend is intended to be fun and constructive, providing local writers with ideas and characters that can be developed.

For further information and to register, contact Kate Ennals on 0863737847/facebook or email kateennals@live.co.uk.

 

Kate completed the MA in Writing at NUI Galway in 2013, receiving First Class Honours.  She has lived in Ireland (Dublin, Cavan, Galway) working with local communities and writing for the last 20 years. Kate Ennals was highly commended in the Desmond O’Grady Poetry competition in 2012, won 3rd Prize in the Dead Good Poetry Competition, run by Over the Edge and the Galway Rape Crisis Centre in May 2013. This year, she was shortlisted in the Claremorris Theatre Fringe Festival, in the Doolin Short Story competition in 2014 and the Swiftsatire Battle of the Books competition. She has been published in the Skylight 47 (2013/2014), in Crannog (2013), Boyne Berries, ROPES, and Burning Bush 2 (2014). She also has poems and short stories published in The Galway Review.

Kate also set up and co-ordinates AT the Edge, Cavan (supported by Cavan Arts Office) a project which holds regular literary evenings in Cavan.

 

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Writing Willy Nilly

ke mc 

For the past few years I have been developing a group of short stories drawn from my life experiences. They were written because I liked writing and wanted to write. They evolved through various mechanisms and went through different forms. They are now ten to twelve short stories and, aside from the editing, they are complete. And, now, I don’t know what to do. Of course, I have my poetry. Poems are my morning glory. They lure me from my bed. My poems are part of my every day. I pick them from the top of the fridge, hear them on the radio, play with them in the garden. But for the past year or so these stories have anchored me. So now I am feeling rather unbalanced, not as in ‘falling’ but as if I have lost my moorings. Now a million shipping metaphors are on the drift…without a compass, all at sea, fog bound. You get my point!

 I guess those stories gave shape to my writing, provided an outlet and now I am going to have to find a new funnel (help, I have to get away from these nautical nuances) for my writing.  Maybe different stories? More drama? Different horizons? (there I go again)! It’s a little scary: I feel as if am marooned on a desert island with no trees or bushes, simply oceans of sand.

 In the past, when I have thought of a desert island, it has always been laden with exotic fruits, thick fronded palm trees and weeping willows (I think the latter came from Enid Blyton’s Famous Five Stuck On an Island) from which I can weave a comfortable abode. There are fish leaping through the surf and shy, good looking, half naked nomads who occasionally share my beach and listen to my poetry. But now I’ve completed my stories, the ‘desert’ aspect becomes more dominant. My island is now barren, full of dry, windswept grains of sand and somehow, I have to make it fertile. I have to make something grow. In short, I have to start a new script for myself.

 It’s rather terrifying, and I have a feeling that this will turn out to be a bit of a ‘process’ thing. You know, where one has to experience the change and the moment before appreciating its meaning and understanding its form. I hate process. It’s so intangible and takes an age. I am too impatient for process. I always try to impose significance on process before it is ready.

 So you may be hearing more from me than is desirable. If my scripted musings become too impenetrable, ignore it…it’s just me processing and writing willy-nilly in the absence of any prosaic structure!

 Actually, maybe I’ll be able to help myself at the writing weekend which I am running on Saturday 16th and Sunday 17th August in Cana House. It may get me started anyhow. Actually, this week a participant of the last writing weekend shared my facebook post about the upcoming weekend, saying

 Treat yourselves – I did a weekend workshop with Kate Ennals and have to say, best money I ever spent on myself. Better than any spa day and better than the best night I ever had in a pub

 Pretty cool ay?

 Details of the weekend are:

 A two day writing workshop will be facilitated by Kate Ennals on Saturday 16th and Sunday 17th August in Cana House (behind St Felim’s School) Farnham St, Cavan Town from 10.00am – 3.30pm The two day workshop will include discussion on writing and poetry and set a range of different exercises: poetry, free writing, character development, dialogue. The poems/writing of each participant will be work shopped by the group.

The aim of the weekend is to stimulate different writing ideas and to work together. The workshop will be varied and hopefully challenging. There will be a limit of 10 places allocated on a first come, first served basis. Cost €45. (Light home made lunch included). The weekend is intended to be fun and constructive, providing local writers with ideas and characters that can be developed.

For further information and to register, contact Kate Ennals on 0863737847/facebook or email kateennals@live.co.uk.

 

Kate completed the MA in Writing at NUI Galway in 2013, receiving First Class Honours.  She has lived in Ireland (Dublin, Cavan, Galway) working with local communities and writing for the last 20 years. Kate Ennals was highly commended in the Desmond O’Grady Poetry competition in 2012, won 3rd Prize in the Dead Good Poetry Competition, run by Over the Edge and the Galway Rape Crisis Centre in May 2013. This year, she was shortlisted in the Claremorris Theatre Fringe Festival, in the Doolin Short Story competition in 2014 and the Swiftsatire Battle of the Books competition. She has been published in the Skylight 47 (2013/2014), in Crannog (2013), Boyne Berries, ROPES, and Burning Bush 2 (2014). She also has poems and short stories published in The Galway Review.

Kate also set up and co-ordinates AT the Edge, Cavan (supported by Cavan Arts Office) a project which holds regular literary evenings in Cavan.

 

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Forgotten in Cavan

pat kinevane

I first saw ‘Silent’, Pat Kinvane’s one man show, in Manchester last March. I loved it and was excited when I saw he was performing at the Cavan Theatre Festival. I wanted to see it again not only because of his engaging and mesmerising performance, but also because the humour and wit was very Irish and I am not sure the English audience appreciated the nuances. I would love to know if he thinks this. So far my highlights of the Cavan theatre festival have been the performances of Silent and Forgotten by Pat Kinvane and the interview by Kieron Smith with Padraic McIntyre and Pat McCabe in Blessings. It was direct, refreshing and honest. I also liked Ray Fitzsimmons first film, pacy and funny. I should say, this is all I have seen! So I am a happy bunny despite having spent the week’s groceries on theatre tickets. It was worth it. But I just want to say a few words about Silent and Forgotten or are they about Pat Kinvane? That is the question. In Forgotten he brings to the set four characters, their stories, experiences, dreams, charms, and life shite but somehow he does it through his own person. The character of Pat Kinvane himself never leaves the stage. I don’t mean physically (it is a one man show, he can’t) but his own self dominates the set. Silent is about suicide, prejudice, mental health. These are very difficult topics but Pat Kinevane addresses them through humour, pathos and anger with dignity and grace. He tells good stories. Each character has a tale and Pat Kinevane regales it through conversation. He engages the audience directly, talks to us, is able to ad lib and draw us in. I felt I was a part of each performance. His interaction with the audience is absolutely brilliant. His movement is gorgeous. His body is divine. If I said more, I’d embarrass myself! Today I’m looking forward to The Moogles, Sean Rocks and Philip Doherty! But I’m also hoping that Pat Kinevane is staying around. Can you have old age groupies?

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Mary Poppins in Trim

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poppins parrot

 poppins on the move
I had a wonderful time in Trim last night where I read as part of the ten person shortlist in The Battle of the Book competition, itself a feature of the Swiftsatire Festival on this weekend.

As judge, Niamh Boyce, made very astute observations and comments on each entry (well, she voiced exactly what I thought, anyway, other than on mine which, of course, was positive but it is so hard to hear encouraging words about one’s own work without instantly dismissing it as worthless). But what was really hilarious was the impertinent criticism and commentary provided by Michael Farry (writer) and Peter Higgins (solicitor) on each piece to help ‘support’ the audience to come to their own decision as to which entry deserved first place. So, well done to them, and to He Who Must Be Obeyed aka Paddy Smith who was Master of Ceremonies, and to the two winners, Angela Finn who won the overall prize and Mark Doyle who was the audience choice. I went with two Cavan poets, Antoinette Rock and Patricia Doole, and we all really enjoyed the evening. It was educational, funny and extremely entertaining.

It was also wonderful to get shortlisted after a folderful of rejections over the past few months…and it was for a poem about my heroine and role model, Mary Poppins. It was therefore slightly ironic when I got home after leaving my young puppy, Poppins, (named after the great Mary herself) alone for six hours to discover that she in turn had deposited a variety of her own poetic, steaming contributions across the kitchen floor! I hope you find mine more refreshing.

Mary Poppins
After Carol Ann Duffy

At first it was great. I loved the escape.
We’d paint our dreams and jump right in,
race on mares from the carousel,
create castles of sand, waltz with animals.
Even when I was ill, it was no bitter pill
She’d give me a spoonful of chips and pale ale.
Mess? We’d make as much as we pleased
for with a click of her fingers, it was cleared.
We danced on the roof tops with chimney sweeps,
we took tea on the ceiling,
a perfect treat!

But life like this, it isn’t real.
It makes a marriage a touch surreal.
I tried to talk to Mary, to explain
we should move on, there was no shame
in settling down. It was the first time I saw her frown.

Practically perfect in every way
is what Mary used to say.
But Mary never understood the facts of life.
She knew what was right and what was wrong
about banking and suffragettes
and singing a song.
But while Mary could pull a dove from her skirts
and feed the birds,
she knew nothing of how to make children.
For me it became a bit of a burden.
For a man’s a man
He has to do what he can.

Can you imagine Mary naked,
having rampant sex?
No, it’s not what you’d expect.
And she didn’t either.
In fact she slept
with her Poppins clothes on,
yes, fully dressed,
with her parrot umbrella for extra protection.
At first, I thought it a real turn on
but when the Parrot was scathing
at my attempts at love making,
well, it put me off.
It didn’t help that Mary scoffed.
As she does.

I tried my best to make our marriage work
but alongside Mary, I looked a jerk.
What she gave to Michael and Jane and the Banks Family
she couldn’t give to herself and me.
When I suggested it was time for us to set up house,
maybe in Bournemouth,
she stuck up her nose, sniffed and pouted her mouth
She put up her umbrella and sailed away,
East or was it North?
I heard the parrot whisper
Get a divorce!

The Banks family didn’t seem to mind when she left,
the day the wind changed
and we were estranged.
But me, you know, I was bereft.
I remember, everyone having fun flying their kites
Even my old rival, Dick Van Dyke.
They didn’t notice Mary fly away,
one gloved hand holding that parrot umbrella
clutching her carpet bag in the other.

But I saw that tear on Mary’s sculpted pink cheek
and knew that silently she wept for me.

And, talking of festivals, while writing this I was also listening to Four Thought on Radio Four. I heard Jasper Fforde talking at the Hay Festival. It was an excellent treatise on the failure of our imagination in modern times. It’s definitely worth a listen. Google Four Thought BBC Radio 4 or maybe the attached link will work.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b048nkdd

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Basking in reflected glory

Both my kids (young people) did well in their respective exams this summer and my maternal heart pumped pride and my brow dripped relief. I have always found it odd when strange instinctive emotions came into play. It’s as if a foreign being steps inside and takes control. The most surprising one was the anger and boiling desire a few years ago to find the young group of people who set about my son in Eyre Square and beat them to pulp. I wanted to pummel them into the ground. I had visions of them flailing around my kick flicks and karate chops. I was prepared to take them on single handed! Of course, they were never in danger (I wasn’t there and even if I had been no doubt it would have been me pummelled into the ground), but I was surprised by the, almost overwhelming, feeling of protection that I experienced.
Fortunately, it is relief and pride, with the occasional belly sinking fear, that have most often taken grip in the maternal me. But, it is the joy of reflected glory that is particularly hard to understand. For other than providing food on the occasional weekend and texting good night every so often, I did nothing. I know nothing of the law, and less about technical music production. If anything, I was probably more hindrance than help. Yet, I get this ridiculous sense of pride when they do well. I wish I could bathe as happily in my own glory. Occasionally, my friends tell me positive things about myself. They admire my strength, my joie de vie, my smile and courage. But instead of basking, I turn away and shake my head, not believing. Wouldn’t it be great to be able to bask in our own glory, rather than that of our children!
Actually, I have veered off track. I was going to write about how those important rites of passage (exams) quickly crumple into insignificance during our desperate pursuit of happiness in life. My degree in American Studies, (not a very good one, so no reflected glory for my parents there), over 30 years ago seems totally irrelevant to the poetry and writing courses that I now facilitate or the AT The Edge, Cavan literary evenings. So does the thirty five years of work in community development. But, I guess, it all adds up and contributes to the amazing me (thank you, friends, I am trying to believe) who, having done sweet FA, is happy to bask in the reflected glory of the children. So, congratulations to everyone who passed their exams…let me know if we are related, this basking business is a blast.
A sudden thought: now that I think about it, I am not sure my mother ever basked in my reflected glory. Maybe I never provided the ‘wherewithal’ for her to do so? Ahh, friends where are you? Basking time over…
In the meantime, here are some photos of the last AT The Edge, Cavan. It was a great session. The three poets reflected in their own glory and the open mic was really good. I loved seeing and hearing the varied and different talent of people, both published and unpublished. It is truly amazing what we can all do. You’d never guess.
Finally, just to let people know, I’m running a weekend writing workshop on Saturday 16th and Sunday 17th August in Cana House and will start a ten week poetry workshop in September. And, below is a link to my novella, Slainté, published on Amazon. A few of you were asking.
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00HT7LVNW

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This week…

It took a couple of pages to absorb the sentence structure of Eimear McBride’s deeply distressing book, A Girl is a Half formed Thing. It’s written in the mode of a stream of thought of a young girl, so its punctuation reflects the havoc and incoherence of the inner voice. The story is about relationships. She has a brother with intellectual disabilities (the first pages are about his stroke as a baby); her mother is a self obsessed, religious woman. There is no father and she is raped by her uncle aged 13 with whom she forms a strong emotional bond as a result. After this she uses sex to  escape the pressures and tirades of adolescence and assert her independence. Eimear Mcbride’s book is very perceptive and it is truly a poem,

Wednesday, it rained all day, that sort of rain that makes you very wet. At the same time, we had an unexpected power cut which meant no electricity or power, so we couldn’t make tea, cook or work on computers. I had planned to hoover the house and wash the floors. Instead, the dog and I wandered aimlessly from room to room. It was like being thirteen, restless and bored. I’d forgotten what that felt like.

I also went to Jampa Ling (the Buddhist centre in Bawnboy) to see the photographs from an exhibition of ‘strong women’ that a friend is putting together. I was delighted when she asked me to feature as one of the women. The photographs, drawing (there are paintings too) of the women are striking. I was shocked when I watched the slide show: the jaws, the angles, the poses, the rhythm, the beauty, the wear and tear of the women is fascinating.

Strong women: what makes women strong? Is it luck? Family, friends? Is it circumstances? Is it ourselves? Is it biological? It’s hard to describe the whisper that weans strength or weakness of woman. Eimear McBride’s book explores female sexuality. Does sexuality provide us with strength? Or is it a weakness? Philosophical and indeed, poetic questions.

I was reading a book on poetry written in the thirties this week. The author showed how phrases, proverbs, slogans  include the essence of verse: they are pithy, catchy, have melody and make sense.

A stitch in time saves nine

A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush

No man is an island

No taxation with representation

Each reflects sense, metre and rhythm, imagery, harmony of sounds and general form: the key elements of poetry. Good isn’t it? So, if a proverb reflects the composition of poetry, it also shows how broad poetry is and how  hard it is to define –  as will be  reflected in this month’s AT The Edge, Cavan which  takes place this coming Tuesday on 1st July in the library in Cavan.

This month we have three poets, all very different, but each captures the key elements of poetry in different ways. I am lucky to have Stephen A Murphy who writes in a ballad form from Leitrim. His recent poem ‘Was it All for This?’ went viral two weeks ago.  And I am delighted to have Rachel Coventry from Galway whose poetry is different, it’s subtle and shaded. Paddy Halligan is the Cavan Man this month, hailing from Bailieborough and his poetry captures an Ireland at a crossroads of class, culture and moral identity. These changes are explored through simple family vignettes, corner-boy voyeurism and colourful characters.

So to coin a phrase

A treat in store!

 

At The Edge flyer

 

 

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